11th October, 2018
This puzzle is getting clearer.
I am going back to Korea, to find my aunt, to visit my grandparents grave yards, to meet my mother, father and to go back to my root. from the scanning yesterday, now I know that the cyst is from the left side which I have for 8 years, I feel that It is related with my family and it belongs to Korea.
On the way back from the family constellation work, I kept reading the book "the journey" . at the end of chapter 4 : [ Trust Trust Trust ] and her tumor was gone in 6 weeks! wow!
Pitch clear,
I am a Eurythmists – one of the healing movement art in the world.
I have lived in the community which based on spirituality, I have been studying 9 years in this alternative fileds, so many lectures and workshops and discussions.
and the most important thing that I have so many friends who trust this path.
I have tried to learn how to trust, how to let go, all about self-development.
And after meeting twelve different healers, I am getting closer to the source of it. the source of the illness.
So I do not need a surgery.
How come I was even thinking to remove my ovary and Fallopian tube, It is not possible.
I don't feel any pain, my cycle is very normal, no abnormal bleeding,
so I will do ultra sound scan from time to time to check. and if it is growing, it is a different story, If I have to have to have to, I will do a surgery.
but now, I can see, I do not need. Also I feel that it is not a negative mass that I have to get rid of it by outer forces. I feel more that I can do it by myself, we ,me and my cyst, can do it together to heal.
But I have to be strict with myself, not to compromise, not to get lazy. I guess this is the most difficult fact, but it is a only way now, putting all my focus on to this path to heal myself.
‘'Felipe this is my decision, will you support me, are you worried? ''
‘'I am not worried, but to know that if it is growing, you will not against surgery, and don't be too stubborn, like how you usually are, just be aware’
Felipe looks always relaxed. I love him.
so now, next one month, I will be full on healing with full trust, once more.
Next day, was totally a new day! it is so clear after a month being unknown, uncertain. even sky looked bluer and fresher than yesterday.
In the morning, I went to see Leticia, she is a good friend of mine and she did a shamanic cleansing for me,
'Leti! I decided not to do a operation''
'Yes, nana, you can do it !''
‘you know what, yesterday during the therapy I said my cyst is like my baby, it belongs to me’
‘No nana, it doesn’t belong to you, it is not your baby, it is blocking the place where you can have a baby. So every time when you have a shower, you clean your cyst energetically' and she showed me the gesture of taking something from my cyst to the floor. 'and don't forget to say thanks, but I don’t need you, and bless the water for cleaning , do every day. and you don’t need all these healers, you can do it by your self. ’
That afternoon, I bumped into Bridgette, my one of the first healer who does spiritual respond therapy,
‘Bridgette, I decided not to do a surgery’
'oh Nana, You are courageous – yes you can do it, now every day you communicate with your subconscious mind, as if you are already healed you speak to them. thank you for your work, but now I don’t need you anymore. every night before going to sleep'
I felt so light, happy and also even some kind of different strength about my decision, stronger than I made a decision to go to Korea.
like in the book
[ Trust Trust Trust ]
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