‘What is your decision? If i go to Korea, Where would you go? ‘
‘I want to be with you but I cannot be with you, I will go to Sekem and start to work and wait for you.’
Felipe Vignolo, this is my man’s name.
Last month, he was working at the Brambletye farm, picking apples, pears and berries and working in the garden of Nubia to earn money to pay rent and food For me.
While I was spending a lot of money on treatments and food, every morning 7am he woke up and went to work and came back home around 6 pm.
He is a very special man,
He never had his own mobile phone till I pushed him to have it last year,
He doesn’t like to buy any clothes for himself.
He basically really doesn’t like to spend money for ‘unnecessary’ things
When he opens a chocolate bar, he only eats a couple of pieces. (not like me who finishes the whole chocolate bar once I open it)
In general he doesn't like to eat a lot
He knows how to play most of songs from 60's 70’s.
He doesn’t make lies even when it is needed,
He is always honest and truthful
‘He is a good man.’ All the community people say.
Once Jose told me ‘he is a person, nobody has antipathy for him, everyone will like him’
Once Rachel said ‘He is a saint nana, you didn’t know?’
Once Martina said ‘He is so pure’
Sometimes I passed by the apple orchard, I found him in the distance,
I cannot stop saying ‘I love you, Felipe!’
Sophia asked me before reflexology session,
"Does Felipe support you well in this path?
"Of course, so much... so so much " i said with my full-heart.
"Oh, nana....I am so happy you met a man who loves you and who you love. I am so happy for you. and he is a kind and good man" and she cried,
Someone said, if you have experience domestic violence in your childhood, you would have fear to have a healthy family life. I never agreed with this. but some little little tiny part in my self was doubting... Can I? i was even doubting that I may not know how to really love and to beloved.
However, meeting Felipe, seems like.. it is cleaning my doubt away. slowly slowly.
"Yes, he is such a good man, I am so happy, and my mother will be so happy to"
I cried, we cried with smiles .
My mother would be so happy that I met Felipe, I met such a warm and kind and gentle person. I remember my mother always wished all her life for a soft , kind, gentleman.
a few days later, I talked to my mother about Felipe, expecting that she will be very happy that I am with Felipe. the first thing she asked
‘Does he earn a lot of money?’ ‘Can he buy a house for you?’
"..........."
I have forgotten she is from Korea, our cultural background is Korean and she is from a traditional generation. And my father…. when I mentioned about Felipe (it was for the first time in my entire life to tell about my partner) he replied me: ‘you need to marry a Korean man’.
phew… it will take sometime.
and nobody speaks English in my family, and also I have some healing work to do with my family, it is time for letting go of the past, for creating space for new things to come towards. Maybe a space for this man to enter.
Once I asked Felipe,
‘it is a mystery why you want to be with me, I am very nasty to you sometimes’
He replied
‘I will tell you a secret, your mother hired me to protect you , be with you, to love you. ’
For a second, I believed him.
‘How much did she pay?’ I laughed, he laughed, we laughed.
I am so blessed in this process, I am with the man who loves me, cares fore me.
and the most important thing is that we love each other.
Blessings on his 31 years birthday
Blessing on his mother who gave a birth and his family
I Love you! Felipe !
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